Why R U ? (SaifahxZon) (Eng) 5

Chapter 05 

 

    

 

"You two don't have to give me those looks to force me. I already told you, no, no," I tell Ai Tai and Ai Junior they still give me glances from time to time because since we got to the cafeteria, they haven't stopped to talk to tell me to participate in the football club project. I guess both because they accepted the interesting offer of both P'Jaypen and P'Soda.

 

 

 

"Because?" Junior asks as soon as I refuse. "Can't you really help your friends? You know I've liked P'Soda for a long time. This is an opportunity for me and him to meet us for a whole month!"

 

"And I will be able to take the field as an officer."

 

"..."

 

"Say, Zon. Make yourself available! I promise I won't ask you anything else! Just this, I swear!" No matter how much TenTai or Junior give me pleading looks and pray to me with their wai , their words are only hopes.

 

"He doesn't want to do it, you can't force him." Thanks, Zen. You saw from my face how worried I am.

 

"You ruin everything, Ai Zen!"

 

"I haven't ruined anything, Tai. Ask her. You see her like me, don't you?"

 

In addition to Ai Zen who helps me, he turns to ask for help and support from Natee, who did not participate in the discussion. I too would like to know if he will take my side.

 

"I don't want to give my opinion on this story. But if I have to be direct, you shouldn't stress it."

 

"I know! But can't it be just this once? Help us!"

 

    

 

"Exactly, Zon. Help us! We are being a little selfish, but we want you to understand my point of view."

 

"Tai, Junior, what you are doing now is not just a little selfish, as you say. We both think you are forcing Zon too much." Zen says in a firm voice until TenTai and Junior get sad. When I see their faces like that, I almost soften. Fortunately I see Ai Zen shaking his head in my direction and I remain silent.

 

"So instead we ask you why you don't want to participate in the project. Is it just because you don't get along with Ai Saifah? Or is there another reason?" Natee, seated opposite me, asks me in a doubtful voice, while Junior nods as if to join the question.

 

"You know he doesn't like taking part in activities. Besides, he doesn't know how to play the guitar." Zen intervenes again to help me, but it doesn't matter: Natee, TenTai and Junior still shake their heads as if they don't believe it.

 

"I don't think the history of the guitar is the real reason. And spare us the history of the activities. I ask you directly: is there any other reason why you don't want to participate in this thing, besides Ai Saifah?"

 

"..." I don't say anything but given the looks everyone gives me as if they were waiting, and they are expecting an answer from my mouth, in the end I nod and tell the whole story to the end, except only one story that I don't tell .

 

The accident of the kiss with Saifah that time.

 

"That's pretty much everything."

 

"Hey! Are you serious ?!" As soon as I finish talking, the first to exclaim something is Ai Junior.

 

"Er"

 

"Nong Sol is really perfidious! How did you think of writing a YY story between you and Ai Saifah?"

 

"Really. Where did it come from? As soon as I'm free I have to go and read it."

 

"Yes me too!" Natee and Junior tease me and raise their hands like it's fun. Do you two get along, huh?

 

"It is not necessary. I already have a headache for this story that Ai Sol does not agree to cancel the story."

 

"I see."

 

"Thank goodness, because I don't explain it anymore."

 

"Maybe they understand, but I don't, Zon." Zen asks me doubtfully. "When the story is like that, instead of having your sister cancel the story and end it, you took an oath with Nong Sol. If that's what you swore, don't think too much about it. But it's not like that. You know I have doubts about that you had the courage to swear with your sister. "

 

"Here ..." I mutter. I don't know how to respond to Ai Zen, because I lied to my sister about not kissing Saifah. "At that moment I was angry. Suddenly he said that I was the boy from Saifah. Even though the two of us detest ourselves to death. In the beginning I thought that Ai Sol would have canceled the story. I got carried away and I sworn."

 

I try to tell by hiding as clearly as possible. Even if Zen doesn't believe me entirely.

 

"That's why you're afraid. You fear that your life is as in the novel, as you swore with your sister," asks TenTai.

 

"Yup." I nod.

 

"Damn it, Zon." TenTai pushes my head: "How can it be this way? This is the real world, it is not fantasy. In my opinion you have invented the story of Saifah so much that your brain has completely confused."

 

"Don't be sure. Because after I swore, I met strange things, like the guy who came to sit next to me in class that day. It was one of my sister's drawings. You recognize that the drawing is the result of fantasy And why did the person in Ai Sol's fantasy jump into real life, how did he do it if he didn't come out of the story? " I try to explain the reasons that make me believe almost entirely, because there are many signs to consider and that point in that direction.

 

"But there is no guarantee that what you've sworn has become real." You see? I've said it before, but both Ai Tai and Ai Jia are different and they question my reasons and challenge me. It is no different from Ai Tee who believes that my story is meaningless.

 

"Really, Zon. I wouldn't worry about that. I still believe it's impossible." Natee says first.

 

"Because if it were possible, we should be the Moons of the faculty!"

 

"..."

 

"But how did you not be last year? How low a man like you can be an elegant candidate? So wake up and move and go back to the real world." TenTai finishes talking and Junior gets up to applaud his friend. Those two join hands as if TenTai had just proclaimed a national speech.

 

Unlike me, I still don't feel satisfied: I knew I shouldn't have told him.

 

"Zon!" But it doesn't take long for someone's hand to pat me on the shoulder. When I turn to see who it is, I see that it is P'Praew, a fourth year senior of my faculty.

 

"Oh, P'Praew. Hi. Did you come to eat here too?" I greet the senior with a wai .

 

"Yes ... But I came looking for us because there is an important thing I would like to talk to you about."

 

"With me?"

 

"Mh, with you. This year the student body has an event, that of Sun and Moon. It will also be Sun and Moon, but every year he did an activity on stage. I came to talk to you about this."

 

Damn! I said it was going to happen !!

 

As soon as he finishes talking, my friends are also speechless. They must be thinking that what I just told them is really the truth.

 

"What happens?" As he asks the question, the boys recover.

 

"It's nothing, P. Go ahead." It is Zen who speaks.

 

"I was saying. There is an event but the second year Moon of my faculty has moved. I wish you would take its place."

 

"Well, I ..."

 

"You can't refuse. I've already entered your name. We'll talk again another time, now I'm going." He finishes talking and runs away, he doesn't even wait for me to refuse.

 

"See? Have you seen it too?" I turn to my friends, who sit there dumbfounded. Maybe they are starting to think that what I said after all could be the truth. "I told you. Everything is happening. So you can stop begging me. There is absolutely no way I can participate in that project."

 

They are all silent as if they didn't know which way to start talking.

 

"You also see how I can't get involved with Saifah. There are still many things that can happen like this. If I imagine attending the event with him really, he and I ..:" It also becomes difficult to swallow saliva when I imagine myself as Saifah's boyfriend. "Hell, I get chills at the thought of it!"

 

I didn't immediately realize that what I just said would stimulate someone's glands to feel somehow. But when I raise my head to look at Junior and TenTai I immediately understand that my words have been distorted in their mind.

 

"I told you, Ai Tai, that Ai Zon does not accept this project because he has a fear of the devil of falling in love with Ai Saifah."

 

 

    

 

"I think like you, Ai Jia. You have already seen when Ai Saifah is beautiful. Those around him get nervous. Someone like Ai Zon does not."

 

"It's not like that. I just don't want that to become like an oath," I hasten to reply.

 

"You don't want him to become like in the oath because you know how you fall in love with him ... Right?" Junior turns to ask me again with a defiant look.

 

"Right. So you've always refused. Say no more. You're afraid you like him."

 

"Not even in a million years."

 

"So why don't you agree to do this event? Fear?"

 

"No."

 

"Or don't you have courage?"

 

"No!"

 

"Then why? If you're afraid, say it. You have a crush on him."

 

"Really ... Admit that you are afraid of falling in love with my friend."

 

"I do not...

 

"Do not lie..."

 

"IS'..."

 

"Or are you hiding the fact that you like it and don't have the courage to accept the event?"

 

"Okay !!! I accept this event!" I say suddenly without thinking, exasperated. Ai Zen, who has an arm stretched out to hold me by the shoulders, suddenly comes off. The moment I raise my hands and bring them to my face, then I shake my head slowly. Even if it was not in time, now inside of me I feel alone to want to win the gossip of those two. "I will attend the football club event, okay. Because there is no way I can please Ai Saifah. And what I swore will never turn into reality."

 

"Ok ..." Junior raises the corners of his mouth in a smile as if he were the winner. "Then Ai Tai and I call P'Soda while you call Ai Jay to say you accept."

 

He finishes talking and pulls out his cell phone, as does Tai who smiles joyfully and gets up and leaves.

 

"We are not late, are we?" I ask when I recover.

 

"Mh." Zen nods as if he can't help me as he puts his hand on my shoulder as encouragement.

 

I have not failed. Just a moment and I let the promise slip away. But it's okay, it doesn't matter. I am sure of my feelings and for sure I will never feel anything for Saifah.

 

It just doesn't exist.

 

...

 

 

 

"Aren't you going with me, Zen?"

 

"No."

 

"You three?" I ask the other three friends to make him change his mind and come to the music club room to make friends. But all they do is shake their heads: "You really are heartless."

 

"Heartless? Go to guitar rehearsals, don't go to war with someone."

 

"But..."

 

"Nothing but ! Move to go to the music club. Believe us, there is nothing to be afraid of as you imagine it," says Junior and pushes me to continue walking, which is on the opposite side to them.

 

"Can you stop making that face? P'Soda is waiting, we have to hurry up and go to football practice." TenTai and Junior have training, while Ai Tee and Ai Zen will go home together.

 

"Okay, I'm going."

 

"If you don't know where the rehearsal room is, call P'Soda again."

 

"Mh ..." I give my word and breathe a sigh before turning on my heels and going in the direction of the Music club. In my heart I pray that everything will go smoothly.

 

This alone would suffice.

 

    

 

 

 

 End of chapter 5