TEST LOVE 1

 

Chapter 01
The Life That My Sister Decided

Hello everyone! First I would like to officially introduce myself. I am Dear or Daranpat. I have a single sister who does not like anyone and who trusts no one thus no one dares to contradict her who has a superhuman personality. It is not that she is good but she has a fierce personality. As for me……..I was fine. I have big eyes that people think that I wear contact lenses on and my red lip always bright and my skin is so white that even after waiting under the sun I don’t turn dark. I guess I can say that I have a ‘pretty face’.

But right now there was a person in front of me who had a similar beautiful face.

Anyone else but him! It’s ok not to sleep alone. I was willing to share a room with someone else, even a ghost is ok but not him!!!

Amid the internal screams like a demon within him asking for merit* the body of the cute boy sitting on the lounge chair with a modest appearance was tense. His big eyes could only look directly at the dark chair in front of him on which a tall boy who was still in his blue striped pajamas sat. He had changed his look. Long gone was the bespectacled boy at home and now there was a charming and attractive man sitting here. The young boy did not know if it was a good thing or a bad thing.
[T/N : Let me give the readers a small lesson on demons in Buddhist cultures. The demons are not the same ones that you are thinking as the ones from hell. In Buddhism, which I think the religion to be connected with this statement here, there are different types of demons. There are some demons who have not done major crimes who can receive merit and then leave their current state but which is very different. It is somewhat like purgatory but not as easy as that. For an example in Buddhism there is a certain type of demon who is always hungry but is said to have a mouth the size of a needle point, yet a stomach the size of an ocean. So it doesn’t matter how fast he eats, he’ll always be hungry. That is his punishment. Here the word demon is used to only make it easier for the readers to understand. It’s more like a bad spirit slowly manifesting into a demon. So here I am guessing Dear is talking about the demons that are more like spirits and who are asking the relatives who are alive for merit so he can move on from his hellish life. ]

The Thai boy who owns the fancy flat has a little bit of Chinese blood running in him. The sharp eyes are slanted with thick eyebrows, the nose is straight and the deeply parted lips are prominent on the hard face giving it character. The tanned skin was beautiful too.

Dear……. Why the hell are you sitting there and describing P’Porsche like some hero in a cheesy romance novel?

The 18-year-old almost hit his head while thinking that thought. Tension began to rush through his bloodstream from the moment he laid his eyes on this man. He realized that he was staring at this man too much that he almost described like some God. Simply put, Porsche was someone he had liked since he was 15 years.

He’s not gay and Dream respected that. He just rubs his head and smiles. That was it.

The thoughts were drowning Dear in his own world. Although his gaze was directed at the two people in front of him, he suddenly went back to that incident many years ago.

“Ai’Porsche, take care of my brother for a little while He’s going to the Engineering Department of university and still hadn’t found a room. I don’t know who else to trust. I’m begging you.” Dream said.

“Can’t find? Can’t find or didn’t want to find?” Dear exclaimed back.

“Sit quietly and wait my dear brother. If you have nothing else to do and bored go and make coffee for Porsche. 2 teaspoons of coffee and 1 teaspoon of sugar and no cream.”

“I’m looking out for you! So now go!!” Dream said.

Dream’s voice was extremely sweet at first but during the last sentence that was uttered it betrayed its true nature as she glared at the person who was trying to object it. That person could only ultimately shut up but he was muttering to himself.

Who is this sister? Definitely not mine. So fake.

He couldn’t help but mutter those thoughts that were running in his head while sitting at the same tense position. He was praying in his heart that P’Porsche would reject his sister’s request even though a part of his heart was betraying that same thought and wanted to hear the words ‘okay’.

“You don’t need to pay attention to Dear. Simply put don’t make me go through more trouble and let him stay for a while. Here there are three bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 1 game room, 1 kitchen and a dining room. It’s too much space for one person and a waste of space. You bought an apartment as if you were going to bring your wife and your kids here and then living alone. Living with Dear is easy. If there is nothing you can even feed him dry food…..”

“P’Dream!!!”

Dream turned to look at her brother, “Shut up.”

When the older sister turned to look, the person who was being looked at could only remain silent as before. His life was always decided by his sister after their parents moved abroad for work 4 years ago. He admitted that he was terrified to go against her.

But Dear was not a dog, how the hell could he eat dry food?

The big eyes looked so angry that Purin (Porsche) could only silently laugh.

The person with the deep voice said for the first time after he uttered the greeting. “Why are you the same as before? Always listening to every order of your sister. She almost turned to a female demon right now.”

Don’t do it P’Porsche. Don’t smile at me like that. It’s karma Dear!! Karma

The thoughts were running wild inside Dear’s head.

The boy avoided looking at the owner of the voice which was laced with laughter. Then Porsche turned to the second person and said “Well no need to be so fierce. Let him stay with me. Like you said, I have no wife and children. It’s good if Dear can help with the housework also. But still is Dream still the same height as before???”

“No P’Porsche!!! I am 3cm taller than before! Now I am 1.60m and…….”

There was no one to blame for that blunder. Now Porsche could look at him easily. His sharp eyes looked at him from head to toe, glistening as if he was checking a priced product. Then Dear understood it was a mistake to answer that question.

“Ha ha ha ha. 1.60m? How many centimeters shorter than me then? Probably around 17 cm?*”
*[T/N :Translator dying from Uwu-ness]*

Don’t smile at me like that Khun Porsche! Don’t laugh like that!!

Amid the laughter of the boy who was joking with the boy next door, the owner of the body of only 160 cm could only turn his head away. His ears were red and his face was burning because of the smile of the person in front of him. His eyes were shining and the younger boy wanted to lean front and caress those cheeks.

Smile but don’t make that face at me.

The short person thought that his sister did not care about his brother at all. She turned to her best friend and then said, “So the agreement is for Dear to stay here. Electricity, water and all…….. I know he won’t bring friends in here often too. He’ll be here mostly from Monday to Friday only.”

“Wait P’Dream, you have to ask Dear if he wants to stay here first.”* Dear exclaimed.
[T/N : In Thailand people call themselves by the second person so this type of conversation of calling oneself by their own name will be seen through out the novel.]

Dear can only scream out loud. Since entering this room less than 10 minutes ago his heart had been beating nonstop. If he was to come and settle here from onwards, he wills urely die after seeing this smile and laughter of the owner of the place.

The two adults turned towards Dear as soon as he stood up. His face was bright red and his fists were tightened as if he was angry that no one was listening to his opinion on that matter. That made Porsche scowl and then turned to the girl next to him and asked, “Are you forcing him to stay here?”

He said it while shaking his head in a bored manner. The listener of that question simply shrugged her shoulders.

“Calm down first Nong Dear. I know that even I would not want anyone to control me. I think Dear does not like to stay here with a person like me who would keep an eye out for him like an older brother and want his freedom.”

No no, It was not because of that reason.

“I know that lot of students in the Faculty of Technology spends time drinking alcohol. I don’t mind it. You can even wear anything you like here. You can stay here as my Nong.”

“But if you’re really not ok with that let me ask someone from my company to look for accommodation available for college students for Dear.”

“You can’t!” Dream said.

The peacemaker could not handle it. He said it all to make the situation better. He was still half-asleep sitting here in his pajamas.

“If this doesn’t work what else should work?” Dream asked.

“Ok then I won’t interrupt anymore. You two negotiate and come to terms and then come and wake me up.” Porsche interjected.

Not only did he say it, the calm man who was acting as the peacemaker between the sibling put his hands on his shoulders bent over and actually went to sleep. The leggy stance made Dear feel that P’Porsche is really the rage.

Did Dream really care about it? No. The beautiful girl only looked at her younger brother who was making a troublesome face and said in a softer and quitter voice,

“ If you say no, go die. You don’t like it, then go die too. If you disagree, you die anyway!”

Simply put, there was no negotiating with Dream.

“Very good then Dear. Listen carefully. You don’t like to get wet when it rains or when the season is cold you need to use super hot water.” Dream continued.

“What are you talking about?”

“Shut up and don’t talk back.”

Before the person he could retort back her sister went out listing all these things about him. Despite keeping his eyes shut he was sure that the person pretending to sleep was actually listening to everything. The girl had changed her voice making her younger brother to sigh deeply.

Okay then. Say it. Go ahead and embarrass Dear. Say it!!

He said this in an extreme sarcastic manner in his heart. There was no stopping his sister so he looked at her as she started to speak again.

“So you must have hot water. You don’t like sleeping on small single beds because you fall onto the floor. You don’t like cold showers but you love drinking cold water more than anything. If you don’t have ice in your drinks you don’t like them so you need a refrigerator too. You don’t like packaged or canned food because it sometimes make your throat itch. Also you don’t like MSG and often cook for yourself. In the least you need a microwave…….”

During the time Dream was going on and on the listener was slightly moved. Although his sister was fierce she knew him better than anyone. But why does she have to describe him now in front of this person who was hugging a pillow and sleeping on the couch? Alas, Khun Porsche slowly opened one eye.

“All that said do you understand that other than here, you’ll have to find a super high-class apartment for you to comfortably live?”

Are you trying to kill Dream with all this shame?

“Also you hate travelling in the bus if it’s full and loaded because it makes you claustrophobic. Also I don’t have time to drop and pick you up all the time so Porsche is the best option for you right now. Every week he returns home so you can take a ride with him to get back during the weekends too. Now do you understand that I have found the best option for you?” Dream concluded.

Should I be moved then?…… Ok I slightly am….

The listener took a deep breath. Knowing that he’s really the problem now. He just wanted to live comfortably. He couldn’t deny that he didn’t like to ride public transport and he feel suffocated and he knows that Dream can’t drop him off everyday. Is he wrong that he didn’t like to eat canned food or food with MSG? If he eats all three meals from school every week day he’ll most probably die during the weekend. But most importantly he felt that he was making his sister worry.

“it’s all free here and not only that you would be saving on gas money because no one has to drive you to college.” Dream continued.

He had to come up with a hasty conclusion. In between being worried and stingy, there was a thin line, wasn’t there?

“Everything is fine except the last sentence.”

Before long the person who was closing his eyes opened them and said in a funny voice which made the young boy turn and look at him. He saw that the owner of the sharp face was smiling and he had to suppress his own embarrassment and quickly looked at his sister’s face. He prayed that P’Porsche forget what he said.

“Ok you understand the situation right? Here’s your monthly allowance. I will increase it to 12,000 per month. If you find a room to rent and then pay it how much are you left with? Stay here. If you’re ashamed to free load from him then you can cook for him. Or you can clean even. Right Porsche?”

“That’s good. It’s like having my own maid…..uh…… or like a private cook.” Porsche replied.

And the one who was waiting till the siblings agree with each other, sat up straight with both his hand on his knees and smiled at the boy until his ears turned red.

“My brother? A private chef!!” Dream said.

“Eh… If you wear a long wig I will definitely think that Dear is a girl for sure.”

Not only did he say that, but even his eyes were shining with merriment when Porsche said that and saw that the listener’s jaw drop. After so many years, was it still so easy for Porsche to tease Dear?

“Right? Big eyes, red lips, white skin my brother is really cute isn’t he?”

The older sister did not come to rescue to the younger brother at all and just nodded in agreement. The listener could only distort his mouth in anger.

“Is the deal ok Dear? Then I can call and tell our parents that you are going to stay with Porsche. They were so worried that you would live alone after going to college.”

The girl concluded and the listener could only nod knowing that there is no way to escape the situation.

“Give me your hand.” Porsche said.

But before he could properly comprehend the words, the tall person stood next to him and when he looked up he saw the speaker was smiling. The deep voice said it jokingly and the listener could only clumsily reach out for him.

“A card?” Dear was confused.

“The card for the room. Keep it with you Dear.”

Purin then reached out and placed his hand on the head of the younger boy. When it came to contact with the incredibly soft hair he saw that it was long enough that it showed that he had long left school. And then he rubbed his head slightly as he did in the past when he was smaller. That only made the boy cry out in his heart and send a repetitive prayer while looking at that sharp face that was smiling. His hand felt warm on his head, warm like the day that Dear had started to like the boy next door. This definitely was not good for Dear. Could he change his mind now?

Despite thinking like that the hand that was grasping the key card only tightened his hand on it without even realizing it.

‘What’s wrong? Are you angry at this?”

Inside the minivan that was definitely too big for a woman to drive, the young woman asked her younger brother who was remaining strangely quiet since the moment he entered it. And when the car finally turned to the big house in which only the two of them were living she finally asked him. Dear turned to answer her.

“Does Dear have the right to be angry? Not at all. Whatever Dear is given, he should accept it. In case you didn’t realize, I am being sarcastic.”

But the listener could only laugh out loud as she drove the car to the parking spot.

“My little brother is so clever.” Dream said.

“P’Dream!! It’s not funny. Giving me off to P’Porsche like this. Don’t you think that we’re bothering him?”

“Don’t think about it too much.” Dream said.

Before she could finish speaking the girl who had yet to figure out if it was a bother or not exited the car and Dear could only follow her.

“What are you going to do brother? Porsche loves you like a little brother. You’ve seen each other since you were small till now. Don’t think so much about it.”

“Do you have a problem with him? Did something happen? Before it was P’Porsche,P’Porsche but after he went abroad to study you didn’t mention him again.” Dream continued.

Dream turned to look into her brother’s eyes and then reached out to twist her arm around his neck. The accused person could only quickly avert his eyes and replied in a nervous tone.

“We haven’t seen each other for 3 years so there’s some apprehension. Dear is no longer the young boy who wanted to be like his neighbor. And besides P’Porsche may feel uncomfortable too. When did he return even? I never knew…..”

“Hm? Are you sulking because he didn’t tell you that he returned to Thailand?” Dream asked.

“Hey you don’t have to say it like that!” Dear quickly retorted.

When his sister said that the listener could not help but be startled. The next door neighbor flew off to do his masters as soon as he finished his bachelor’s degree to United States. He had not seen him until now…..one time. There was no self-pity for him, he just felt strange.

“What is that you cannot overcome so much? What is wrong with you? Why are you suddenly against P’Porsche? Or do you………………?”

Then Dream suddenly put her brother in a chokehold and then forced him to look at her eyes causing the man in question to struggle furiously.

“What……what is it? Why are you looking at Dear like that?” He quickly asked.

“So you……..” Dream didn’t finish her sentence.

No! They shouldn’t be reading each other’s thought right now!! No you can’t know what Dear is thinking right now!

“Are you afraid that you will be forced to do housework?” Dream asked.

“Ha ha ha, Look at your face little brother. There is nothing to worry about It is not an apartment with 2 wives and 3 children. There is no fear that you would be treated badly. Temple worth eating is worth staying. Don’t be so afraid Dream’s little brother.” Dream laughed while saying this.

After saying that Dream playfully pushed away her brother’s head hard. The person who had stiffened after the initial question laughed out dryly.

“Ehhhhh…. Oh yes. Dear is just afraid that P’Porsche will start ordering Dear around.”

Now there was nothing except to take that as the excuse. Dream laughed and walked quickly to the garden bench and sat.

“Then stop thinking about it so much. Let’s cook some food this afternoon and continue with the customer’s orders.”

“Let me water the plants a little bit. Then I’ll make fried rice.” Dear said.

Dear screamed internally, though his eyes kept staring at the old bench. The scene from few years ago came to his mind. The sight of a 15-year old boy heartbroken by his girlfriend for the first time…. Next to him was someone else.

He had come here to sit and wipe his tears all alone in the garden.

His face was distorted because of the sadness and anger in his heart. He was wondering what he did wrong and kept blaming himself. At that moment his older neighbor had seen and walked towards him.

P’Porsche didn’t say anything. He also knew everything that had happened. When he broke up, one of his own best friend’s were involved in it too.

The neighbor who was about to graduate with a bachelor’s degree stepped forward and just raised his hand to the younger’s head and patted him. Just like that. Porsche sat and caressed his head lightly.

He did not speak to comfort him, just let him sit with his face bowed so that the tears flew silently. When he ultimately raised his head to look at him, he saw that Porsche was still in the same place with a sad smile on his face….making the person who was crying silently to cry even louder.

“Cry all you want today. Tomorrow do not shed another tear for those people.” Porsche said.

That was the first lesson that Porsche had given him. But the brother next door did not know what that small incident made him feel. It made him feel so happy that it was scary.

That night instead of being able to sleep and instead of thinking about the shame of being abandoned and thinking of talking to them again, he fell asleep with a smile. He could still feel the gentle touch on his head. The thoughts in his head…. He did not know how to hide them. But his problem was solved next week when he got to know from his siter that P’Porsche was getting ready to fly to USA to study and that would be the last interactions between them. That was the night that he started to love this boy next door.

“P’Porsche, what should I do?” Dear asked out loud.

Dear could only look down and lean his forehead against the stone table with his eye closed. What should he do now?